I know it's pretty silly but when I finish a small project I have to carry it into the house to see and fondle , it gives me such pleasure even if it's only a mallet or a newly handled old chisel. For decades I built things for other people and of course accepted money in exchange, now at last I get to enjoy the objects of my labor, not just the fruits! Hoping that "one day" comes soon for you, cutting edges or knitting needles or nice cookware, We are all creative and we're hardwired to enjoy the act of creation.